My Better Half

Let me start by saying how much I Love my wife Catrina.
God bless her for having to deal with me!!!
Catrina is a very unique woman.
She is a great mother.
She is an awesome cook.
She loves watching football with me and usually is a lot more vocal than myself.
She loves to read and listens to a unique range of music.
She really enjoys letting go and relaxing (Unfortunately it doesn't happen enough to ease all the stress she has to deal with)
She is not a shopper and does a much better job maintaining our money than I could.
She can see through any story or expression someone is trying to put on her.
She is very straightforward and says exactly what she means.
I cannot communicate very well and when I do I usually say the wrong thing.
First of all let me say I was supposed to and promised her I would talk to her before I joined the military. I didn't!
I am, as a husband supposed to hold up and support her, I don't.
I am, as a husband supposed to treat her with respect and dignity, I don't.
Our future isn't very solid. I'm really hopeful we can, together dig ourselves out as I am just caving in the walls of the hole we're in instead of digging.
Prayers at this point..... are probably..... the only thing holding our thin facade together.


Hopefully I will get back on track with a little counseling